one by one, we watch them fall...and wonder where they're falling to...
1) is it strange that the loss ive known between two aprils has me musing on the phenomenon of my own impending mortality?....no...but the thing is...my reaction to it is malleable. sometimes i'm not willing to stand face to face with the reaper...other times I feel I'll just slip a PostMortem Lights 100's (filterless, duh) into my ectoplasmic mouth and buy the entity with the universe's most thankless job a beer.

intimacy breeds hostility and enlightenment. both, and dont kid yourselves.


2) She tossed a semi-curious "hi". to which I said "i was just looking at you" as proof of a lack of intention to cause nervousness.

she said "I was asleep."

I said "I know. I was just looking at you."

she said "not much to see when my eyes are closed."



Nothing could be further from the truth.